Harapan Saya untuk Tahun 2008

Harapan saya untuk tahun 2008 ialah...

1. Perusahaan saya akan lebih maju sehingga boleh bersaing di peringkat antarabangsa.
2. Berkongsi hidup bersama orang yang paling saya sayangi dan rindui dalam setengah tahun pertama.
3. Mengerjakan Umrah bersama kakak dan abang serta isterinya dalam suku tahun pertama.
4. Melangsaikan hutang belajar pada suku tahun kedua.
5. Memiliki sebuah rumah pada suku tahun terakhir.

If Only...

If only I had the courage like I have now back then, I know that certain someone would be happier now. I would be happier myself. I'm not saying I am not happy now, but I would be happier if that certain someone would be happy too.

Family Time 2007 - Bukit Merah Laketown & Penang

I don't usually do this, but let the picture do the talking this time. Will write again as soon as I get my notebook fixed.

Love is not to Forget but to Forgive

I checked my mails yesterday and I saw this in one of the mails sent to me. Thought I'd paste it in here and share with others...

LOVE is not to FORGET but to FORGIVE,
Not to SEE but to UNDERSTAND,
Not to HEAR but to LISTEN,
Not to LET GO but to HOLD ON...

Tercipta Untukku - Ungu

menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

banyak kata
yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
kepada dirimu

reff:
aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tau
kuslalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu
sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tau
kuslalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu

Sumber: LirikLaguIndonesia.Net

More Celebrations over the Weekend

My cousin sister got married last Saturday. The reception was sweet and simple. Her Majlis Akad Nikah was held at the mosque in front of her Granny's house. I, as usual, shed tears every time I attend Majlis Akad Nikah. Tak tau la kenapa, every time I dengar orang lafaz nikah, mesti rasa macam nak nangis. Sensitive ke hape, tak tau la. Most of my uncles and aunts and cousins came back for the wedding. I guess this is more like a family gathering for us.

Yesterday I celebrated my birthday with my family. Takde la ape sangat pun, dah tua, tak la meriah sangat celebration nya. My cousin treated the whole family for breakfast, my mom lunch, and my brother dinner. Kira - kiranya tahun nih punya birthday, I asyik makaaaaaannn je la the whole day. Hehe. Oh, not to forget, my sister in law gave me a long purse. I just luuurrve it.

Nasa, as expected, did not remember.... hmm... MEN!

Ceritera Rindu

Esok genap sebulan Nasa di perantauan. I have to admit, I do miss him and I miss him a lot. Selama kami berchenta ni, tak pernah lagi kami berkeadaan macam ni. Dulu, masa dia di KL, I could still hear his voice at least once a day but not this time. The last time we spoke to each other was the day before he flew for London. We had a long chat via the phone. Luckily I subscribed to 1+3 punya scheme, kalau tak, for sure bill aku melambung bulan tu.

Teruk juga rupanya bila rindu ni ye. Everything rasa macam not right, not complete. I miss everything about him; his voice, his jokes, his laugh, his temper, his touch, his hugs, his smell...

So Hunny, if you happen to read this, I want you to know I been thinking about you and I miss you so much.

I am so short of ideas...

that I think I should just go to bed now.
I shall try to write again tomorrow.

Gute Nacht.

Birthday Celebration

It's Mommy's birthday today. She is 64. She had lots of gifts this year, mostly from her grandchildren. We, her children on the other hand treated her for a dinner. Kalau nak ikutkan, apa lah sangat harga makan malam kalau nak dibandingkan dengan segala pengorbanan Mommy untuk kami semua.

Weekend Updates

I was supposed to go out with Nasa lepas kerja last Saturday. But then, we did not. Abah was admitted to the hospital and he had to take care of Abah. It was quite sad because Nasa is leaving for London this evening and now Abah is ill. He is worried to the max.

But I did meet him on Sunday though. Brought along the cheese cake and the baked macaroni I baked for him. I’m glad he loved it. That night, salam – salam dgn dia, mintak maaf segala. Dia pesan to take care of myself since he will not be around for the next 3 months. Mak wanted to meet me. They waited but I came late. I felt bad I made them wait. Since Abah was not quite well yet, Nasa promised Mak he’ll take me to Sg. Lembing as soon as he’s back in Malaysia.

Also on that Saturday, my cousin arrived from KL with her friends. She called me to pick them up at Vistana so that I could show them around Kuantan. My cousin tu hopeless skit when it comes to directions. Just imagine, nak sampai ke rumah I, tak tau berapa kali dia tawaf Bandar Kuantan tu baru jumpa my house. Sabo je la.

Anyway, she's here because of the World Silat Championship that is now being held at SUKPA. I don't exactly know what she does but apparently she is doing some sort of a research on event management thingy. Since this cousin of mine nih dah tak balik Kuantan dalam 3-4 tahun dah, so I pun obliged la nak entertain she and her friends.

Yang tak larat tu 2 hari berturut - turut I balik pukul 1 pagi. Dang! I betul - betul dapat LESEN BESAR from my parents. Hehe. I nih kan, seperti yang sedia maklum adalah anak yang baik lagi mendengar kata. Mana la I biasa balik pepagi bute nih. Because of that, I am now having fever. Teruk kan? Nampak sangat tak gheti keluar malam. Hehe. Went to the clinic yesterday and doctor kasik MC. Went home and slept the whole afternoon. Bliss!

Iftar at the Grand C0n

Last Friday we had our Iftar at GC. Takdek la grand sangat pun. There were 30 of us, most of them supies and of course our MD and Director were also there. MD brought his wife along and sat satu table ngan I. Mula - mula tu rasa kekok since I have never spoke to him informally, but later I found out that he's quite friendly. His wife is friendly too. Walaupun depa tu tak berapa nak gheti nak cakap omputih, but they really tried to be friendly to everybody.

The food was good but I only ate a little sebab dah tak boleh nak masuk dah perut. Rugi kalau bawak I pegi buffet neh, bayar mahal tapi makan ciput. So kalau - kalau ada orang yang terfikir nak ajak I gi buffet tu, better think twice. Kalau ala carte takper. Hehe.

Lepas makan - makan, sure la ada photography session kan. Hmm, apa lagi, flash kelip sana sini la. Rasa macam glam je malam tu. Padahal hakikatnya takdek la glam sangat.

Bila dah siap semua, baru la sibuk nak cari tempat solat. Punya la jauh, naik lift, jalan sampai keluar kat parking area, pastu naik lift lagi, baru jumpa surau. Walaupun surau tu susah skit nak cari, tapi kira okayla sebabnya prihatin jugak la hotel tu nak sediakan ruang solat. It is an apartment they convert it into ruang solat.

Lepas solat tu, terus get ready nak balik. Lepak jap depan pintu hotel tu, amik gambar lagi and finally I was ready to go home. All in all, the event was fun.

Siapa Sangka???

Who would have thought that my mobile number yang I dah gune since 2000 sebenarnya berharga ribuan ringgit malaysia. How I know? Here's how...

I went to my service provider this afternoon to register a new mobile number for my personal use. Little that I know that we can actually migrate from prepaid to postpaid but still maintaining the prepaid mobile number. The CSO told me I could, so I decided to go for it. I told her my number and her response was, "Puan, kalau puan nak tau, number puan nih kalau orang nak beli, the cost would be RM1000.00". "Seriyes? Oh man, mahalnye number aku!", terkejut beruk I kejap.

Mana taknye, I ingat lagi masa I beli number tu, rege dia RM138.00. Itu harga masa memula prepaid SIM keluar. Rasa macam mahal sangat dah masa tu. Tak sangka la pulak sekarang buleh jadi rege cam gitu. But then, rasa bangga gak. Ehehehe. Tak sanggup I nak jual number tu. Kalau orang offer lebey dari tu pun I taknak jual. Sayang beb. Dah jadi macam darah daging dah, sebati ngan hidup. Kalau guna number lain, musti rasa strange je.

Ramadhan Datang Lagi

Esok kita start puasa. The third year after the Incident...

Tuhan,

Aku bersyukur

Kau berikan aku peluang

Peluang untuk perbaiki hidupku

Tuhan,

Tiga tahun lalu

Aku hanyut dalam duniaku sendiri

Aku hanyut dalam keseronokan

Sehingga aku lupa padaMu

Tuhan,

Sesungguhnya Kau masih sayang padaku

Aku bersyukur kerana Kau masih mengingatiku

Kau berikanku jalan, Tuhan

Jalan untuk aku kembali kepadaMu

Tuhan,

Aku kembali padaMu

Setelah sekian lama aku lupakanMu

Setelah sekian lama aku ingkar

Tuhan,

Aku berdoa padaMu

Jangan dipesongkan hatiku ini

Tetapkanlah Imanku

Aku ingin menjadi umatMu yang paling taat

Aku ingin kembali padaMu, Ya Rabbi

Sesungguhnya aku hanya insan yang kerdil lagi hina

Yang tidak kebal dari melakukan dosa

Yang tidak kebal dari godaan syaitan

Aku mohon perlindungan dariMu

Tuhan sekelian alam...

Aduh.... Sakit Jantung dibuatnya

Okay, this entry will be in Malay and English.... rojak day today..

Petang tadi sepatutnya pegi dating ngan Abang before dia balik KL. Tapinye entah kenapa dia tak call. I tried texting him, tapi it didn't get through. Mula-mula relax je, knowing him yang selalu handphone batterynya kaput. Tapi bila dah sampai ke petang, still takdek khabar berita, mula la hati nih pikir yang bukan-bukan.

I paling risau kalau anything happened to him. Eiii, taknak imagine pun. I taknak jadi macam my friend a couple of years ago when her boyfriend meninggal sebab accident. Sangat kesian. I don't think I can handle that you see. I may not be as strong as my friend. Mahu lembik aku kot.

Setelah penat risau-risau kan diri, akhirnya dekat-dekat pukul 10 tadi, baru la dapat cerita yang sebenar-benarnya. Rupa-rupanya kawan yang dia supposed to car pool nak balik KL, accident plak kat Kemaman. Yang dia ni, dok jadi kawan yang baik lagi bertanggungjawab, pi la tengok kawan dia tu kat Kemaman. Patah kaki katanya. Minah tu plak, handphonenya pecah disebabkan oleh accident tu, maka digunakan pulak la handphone Abang sebagai ganti.

Maka, conclusionnya, tolong la Abang ooiii, lain kali jangan la buat orang risau macam nih. Sakit jantung dibuatnya!

Isn't This Amazing?

Look at this pic. This is actually a part of tangga at Pahlawan Mall in Melaka. Yep, I was in Melaka last week. Melaka has changed since the last time I went there back in 2004. Dulu takde Pahlawan Mall, skarang nah, gedegang kat tengah padang tu.

When I first saw the mall, I said to myself, "Oh no, not another mall?!!" Memang la pada dasarnya it is a mall, takde beza dari mall - mall yang lain kat Malaysia ni. But when I went to the other side of the mall, there you are, I saw this beautiful tangga. Cantik sangat! I have to say this is fine art guys. I have to compliment the people behind this project. Bravo guys, you have left me gawping at the tangga.. Tee hee

Tempat Kerja Baru

Hmm... was supposed to write about this earlier tapi gwe sibuk sekali deh...

My contract with my previous dept ended early June, just in time for my holiday in Bandung. I was 3 weeks without a job until they (the company that I used to work with) called me back for another position. They called up to meet on Wednesday, June 27th, and I started working again the very next day.

New dept, new boss, new challenge, and I'm ready for it!

Kalau tak ready pun, kena ready jugak sebab the pay is high! heheheh... Akak kaya dik bulan neh...!

Guess Who?

Tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, cuba teka siapa jejaka ini. Revealing first time evah!

Andy

Lemme tell you about this guy, Andy. I started to know him when I accidentally landed on his blog about a year ago while googling some stuff. I read his blog that day and have been reading ever since (I'm not sure if he reads my blog though... hehe).

Because I am here in Kuantan and he is in Bandung, we could either text to each other or meet online, until last week, when my sister and I had our vacation in Bandung. When he texted me that he would be coming to the hotel on that Saturday morning, I wondered if I would be able to recognise him. Well, hey, I did!

Now that I have met him, I find him pleasant to be with. He is what my sister call, the "budak baik" type. Well, I think so too. My sister's children adored him for god knows why. Whenever he is not around, one of them would surely ask me or my sister, "Where is Uncle Andy? Why isn't he with us?" I tell you Andy, what did you actually do to my niece and nephew sampai both of them suka sangat kat you? Jealous I tau since I am their favourite Aunt!

So Andy, it is nice to have you as a friend and I am glad I accidentally landed on your blog...

Vacation in Bandung (Part 1)

Hmmm.... this is day two after my Bandung trip but I still have not write anything about it. Yep, I have promised Andy that I should be writing as soon as I am home but as usual, me, being the Queen of Procrastination would rather keep the ideas until I don't know when.... Hehehe

After all, now that I have more time to spend in front of my notebook, I guess I can probably write it..... tomorrow! How about that? ;p

That Time of the Year has Arrived!

It's official! The season has started. Oh you know what I mean... Just a couple of weeks ago I received four wedding invitations. My parents received more than that. Out of four, I attended only one. I went to another one with my parents yesterday since I had to be their driver and today, I had to attend another one because the reception is right in front of my house. Memang tak boleh nak elak!

Nak elak ke? Bukan nak elak, but then malas nak pegi. I'm just not comfy going to wedding receptions. If I go to my relative's reception, the number one question would always pop out and as always, I would anwer "No, not yet." Then of course they would go on with, "Kenapa tak kawin lagi?" Laa.... payah nak jawab soklan nih. Nak tak nak, sengih je la. Some of them would be satisfied with my sengih "kerang busuk". But some of them will just go on asking, "Tak de lagi ke?" Haaa... yang nih soklan killer... Memang orang yang tanya tu nak kena bunuh..... If I happen to be in a good mood, I would be answering that question in a polite way. But if I am not, this would be my answer, "Memang takde lagi. Kenapa? Dah ade calon untuk saya ke? Kalau bukan engineer, tak payah nak recommend la ye...." Hehehe... Jahatnye la aku.... ;p

No title for this one...

Why am I so full of rage at this moment? Asyik rasa nak marah je everytime I am at home? What is wrong with me exactly? I am so afraid to even speak because I know it will come out nasty even if I have no intention of doing it? I feel like hitting someone, kicking butt and even smashing their heads to the wall, I really do. I feel like shouting so loud just to let all this anger subside, I really do!

I need to talk to someone but I don't know where to start. What would I tell when I don't even know the reason I feel this way. HELP ME....

MC la pulak!

For more than 2 weeks I suffered from CTS. I finally surrendered yesterday night as it gave unbearable pain on my right hand. I could barely sleep yesterday and I felt helpless. Hey, it is so painful that I shed tears (not that I always do that). No painkiller could help ease the pain. Kalau ikut perasaan, malam semalam jugak nak pegi hospital.

I went to my Ortho this morning and he gave me the steroid jab to lessen the swelling. He suggested I should opt for a minor surgery to release the vein. If I were to have that surgery, I should be having it 8 weeks from now (Err... 8 weeks? hmm... Is that before of after the Bandung trip? Gotta check my schedule).

Anyway, my right hand is all puffed up; the effect of the jab. Can't do much when it's all puffed up. As a result, I get 2 days of medical leave. BLISS! Hehehehe

Ape Malang la Haku Arineh????

Adulaaaa... Believe it or not, I went to the office this morning tak bawak satu hape pun! I left all my things which I put it in my working bag and sesuka hati je aku pi tinggal. The best part was I only realised I left it when I was already in front of the Plant gate.

It worries me when I actually noticed I am sooooo absent minded now. I forget things easily. Amik document, bawak pi kat meja Salwa, and I end up leaving the document there. After that, I'll be busy searching for it all over the place. Sungguh tidak productive. Does this mean I am getting way too old? Hmm... Don't think so... hehhehe. (Cesss, taknak ngaku tu awak tu dah tua!)

So, back to my story pagi tadi. Since I dah tinggalkan my bag tu kat rumah, time lunch tadi, siap pinjam duit ngan orang nak makan. Malu siot. Sungguh malu. heheheh...

Dah la ari nih nak bukak Tender Box. Sudahnye kena bukak esok jugak sebab kunci tu takdek....

Sebab tinggal bag jugak la saya takleh nak gi yoga arineh... baju tarak!

Ingatkan sampai situ episod malang, rupa-rupanya ade lagi sambungannya. Tadi pi town ngan Mommy nak pi amik my sunglasses. Dah sampai kedai, org tu kasik specs suruh try pakai. Haram sunggoh! Bila pakai, tak nampak satu haram pun. Ntah hape masalah la lenses tu sampai tak nampak... Dah la kena anto lab balik.

In short, memang hari nih hari malang saya.... HAMPEH!!!

Wish List Item No. 3

Ahh... I finally registered myself for Yoga classes. Started on Monday and today my body aches like hell! You see, I have not been exercising since the knee ops I had two years ago and I really think I should start again, exercising, I mean...

I'm going again tomorrow. Hope I'll survive...

I carry Your Heart with Me

I was reading Cummings the other day and I came across this beautiful poem.

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

When I'm Fuming MAD...

When I'm fuming mad...

My brains are numb.

My mouth just refuse to blurt things out.

O how I wish I could have that "zing" just like Joe Fox so that I can say things I wanna say when I'm mad.

Would'nt it be nice if I have the "zing"?