Sunday, September 28, 2008

Something I received thru my email

Baru je bukak mail for today and received this from a long lost friend. Thank you Amar kerana mengingatkan kami semua kepada yang telah meninggalkan kita. The truth is I myself selalu teringatkan Arwah Man walaupun I tak rapat dengan dia. I remembered the evening before he passed away, he actually smiled and spoke to me padahal I tak pernah bercakap dengan dia sebelum tu. Here's what Amar wrote:
Jumaat
12:50 pagi
29/03/02
Bilik Study GMi

Pagi tadi aku bangun 7.40 pagi. Pegi bilik Yeop nak pinjam kereta (thnx man, jasa mu akan kukenang...) . Gerak dari hostel GMi pukul 8.40 antar beg Dan kat bukit damansara. Lepak kedai Dan sampai pukul 9 lebih, makan lebih kurang and also pau Dan 10/= (thnx dude.....). Sampai hostel balik dalam pukul 10.00, bagi kunci kete kat Wak. Time aku nak masuk rumah je, shit!!! baru perasan pintu kunci!!!

Lepak umah Jai sorang2 tgk tv.... boring giler. Terpaksa skip class agama and calculus. Save number phone Azman (selayang / mecha 2004) dlm h/p. Semalam tgh hari dia call aku sebab nak pulang kan calculator yg dia pinjam before. Aku kenal Man Mecha dari IKM lg, dia junior aku satu sem. Walaupun x kenal rapat, but we know each other. Dia pulak kenal rapat ngan member aku budak Vi (Reza & Wan).

Call apek ngan man gemok tp x dpt, pukul 11.20 baru dapat. Habis 1.70/=!!!. Jumpa Ed, dia balik hostel nak amik kad charity run (utk amik baju). Apek balik hostel bawak kunci umah. Pegi GMi ngan Apek time lunch. Settlekan presentation for microP. Jumpa Man Mecha kat cermin library, dia jalan kat luar, sempat kutuk man gemok and say hi kat aku.

Pegi class microP, sebelum masuk class hisap rokok kejap ngan man gemok n tod. On the way nak gi class jumpa Man Mecha dgn bebdk class dia. Dia ckp man gemok jalan mcm young & dangerous! Presentation microP okay. Balik pukul 5.40 ptg. Mkn nasi lemak 2 bungkus terus naik atas tidur...

Pukul 8.00 mlm dpt berita Man Mecha meninggal. Accident near zoo negara. Call Reza & Wan. Dorg sempat tgk jenazah kat hospital. Tak tau aper citer sgt sebab payah nak call, credit xde! Study microP sikit esok test.

Semoga roh Man Mecha dicucuri rahmat.
Al-Fatihah.. ......... .......

Assalamualaikum semua...... B4 ni aku x penah tulis kat group ni. This is my 1st time. X tau la kalu korg igt lg aku ke x! Petikan kat atas aku salin balik masa aku tulis malam arwah Man Mecha meninggalkan kita. Esok tu aku ngan bebdk class aku pegi reramai ziarah pengebumian Man. Bebdk batch dia pun ramai dtg including EIT2004. Aku bukan nak sentimental sgt. Tp biasalah, time2 bulan puasa n nak raya ni. Kt mesti terigtkan org yg dah xde n also terigtkn kenangan ngan memember.... Hopefully korg semua x lupakan dia....

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Ramadhan 2008

This is the fourth Ramadhan after the turning point.

InsyaAllah I am still on the track even though I do "tergelincir" a couple of times this year. I realised that I am not that strong. I need to learn more. I also realised that the more I try do good, the more obstacle I will have to face. Banyak betul dugaan saya.
This Ramadhan, for me, is the time for muhasabah diri. I have not been myself for quite sometime and I need time to reflect myself. This is the time for me to sit down and think and rethink whether decisions made by myself earlier on was the right decisions I made for my life.
I really don't know at the moment where my life would lead to right now. I am almost 32 but I still am still searching, searching for the right answers to my questions on life. Searching for clues that could help me decide which path to choose to walk through the journey of my life.
Hmm... mengingatkan I pada Robert Frost's The Road Not Taken.