Guess Who?

Tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, cuba teka siapa jejaka ini. Revealing first time evah!

Andy

Lemme tell you about this guy, Andy. I started to know him when I accidentally landed on his blog about a year ago while googling some stuff. I read his blog that day and have been reading ever since (I'm not sure if he reads my blog though... hehe).

Because I am here in Kuantan and he is in Bandung, we could either text to each other or meet online, until last week, when my sister and I had our vacation in Bandung. When he texted me that he would be coming to the hotel on that Saturday morning, I wondered if I would be able to recognise him. Well, hey, I did!

Now that I have met him, I find him pleasant to be with. He is what my sister call, the "budak baik" type. Well, I think so too. My sister's children adored him for god knows why. Whenever he is not around, one of them would surely ask me or my sister, "Where is Uncle Andy? Why isn't he with us?" I tell you Andy, what did you actually do to my niece and nephew sampai both of them suka sangat kat you? Jealous I tau since I am their favourite Aunt!

So Andy, it is nice to have you as a friend and I am glad I accidentally landed on your blog...

Vacation in Bandung (Part 1)

Hmmm.... this is day two after my Bandung trip but I still have not write anything about it. Yep, I have promised Andy that I should be writing as soon as I am home but as usual, me, being the Queen of Procrastination would rather keep the ideas until I don't know when.... Hehehe

After all, now that I have more time to spend in front of my notebook, I guess I can probably write it..... tomorrow! How about that? ;p

That Time of the Year has Arrived!

It's official! The season has started. Oh you know what I mean... Just a couple of weeks ago I received four wedding invitations. My parents received more than that. Out of four, I attended only one. I went to another one with my parents yesterday since I had to be their driver and today, I had to attend another one because the reception is right in front of my house. Memang tak boleh nak elak!

Nak elak ke? Bukan nak elak, but then malas nak pegi. I'm just not comfy going to wedding receptions. If I go to my relative's reception, the number one question would always pop out and as always, I would anwer "No, not yet." Then of course they would go on with, "Kenapa tak kawin lagi?" Laa.... payah nak jawab soklan nih. Nak tak nak, sengih je la. Some of them would be satisfied with my sengih "kerang busuk". But some of them will just go on asking, "Tak de lagi ke?" Haaa... yang nih soklan killer... Memang orang yang tanya tu nak kena bunuh..... If I happen to be in a good mood, I would be answering that question in a polite way. But if I am not, this would be my answer, "Memang takde lagi. Kenapa? Dah ade calon untuk saya ke? Kalau bukan engineer, tak payah nak recommend la ye...." Hehehe... Jahatnye la aku.... ;p

No title for this one...

Why am I so full of rage at this moment? Asyik rasa nak marah je everytime I am at home? What is wrong with me exactly? I am so afraid to even speak because I know it will come out nasty even if I have no intention of doing it? I feel like hitting someone, kicking butt and even smashing their heads to the wall, I really do. I feel like shouting so loud just to let all this anger subside, I really do!

I need to talk to someone but I don't know where to start. What would I tell when I don't even know the reason I feel this way. HELP ME....

MC la pulak!

For more than 2 weeks I suffered from CTS. I finally surrendered yesterday night as it gave unbearable pain on my right hand. I could barely sleep yesterday and I felt helpless. Hey, it is so painful that I shed tears (not that I always do that). No painkiller could help ease the pain. Kalau ikut perasaan, malam semalam jugak nak pegi hospital.

I went to my Ortho this morning and he gave me the steroid jab to lessen the swelling. He suggested I should opt for a minor surgery to release the vein. If I were to have that surgery, I should be having it 8 weeks from now (Err... 8 weeks? hmm... Is that before of after the Bandung trip? Gotta check my schedule).

Anyway, my right hand is all puffed up; the effect of the jab. Can't do much when it's all puffed up. As a result, I get 2 days of medical leave. BLISS! Hehehehe

Ape Malang la Haku Arineh????

Adulaaaa... Believe it or not, I went to the office this morning tak bawak satu hape pun! I left all my things which I put it in my working bag and sesuka hati je aku pi tinggal. The best part was I only realised I left it when I was already in front of the Plant gate.

It worries me when I actually noticed I am sooooo absent minded now. I forget things easily. Amik document, bawak pi kat meja Salwa, and I end up leaving the document there. After that, I'll be busy searching for it all over the place. Sungguh tidak productive. Does this mean I am getting way too old? Hmm... Don't think so... hehhehe. (Cesss, taknak ngaku tu awak tu dah tua!)

So, back to my story pagi tadi. Since I dah tinggalkan my bag tu kat rumah, time lunch tadi, siap pinjam duit ngan orang nak makan. Malu siot. Sungguh malu. heheheh...

Dah la ari nih nak bukak Tender Box. Sudahnye kena bukak esok jugak sebab kunci tu takdek....

Sebab tinggal bag jugak la saya takleh nak gi yoga arineh... baju tarak!

Ingatkan sampai situ episod malang, rupa-rupanya ade lagi sambungannya. Tadi pi town ngan Mommy nak pi amik my sunglasses. Dah sampai kedai, org tu kasik specs suruh try pakai. Haram sunggoh! Bila pakai, tak nampak satu haram pun. Ntah hape masalah la lenses tu sampai tak nampak... Dah la kena anto lab balik.

In short, memang hari nih hari malang saya.... HAMPEH!!!

Wish List Item No. 3

Ahh... I finally registered myself for Yoga classes. Started on Monday and today my body aches like hell! You see, I have not been exercising since the knee ops I had two years ago and I really think I should start again, exercising, I mean...

I'm going again tomorrow. Hope I'll survive...

I carry Your Heart with Me

I was reading Cummings the other day and I came across this beautiful poem.

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

When I'm Fuming MAD...

When I'm fuming mad...

My brains are numb.

My mouth just refuse to blurt things out.

O how I wish I could have that "zing" just like Joe Fox so that I can say things I wanna say when I'm mad.

Would'nt it be nice if I have the "zing"?

Why can't I?

Why can't I tell him that I really like him?
Why can't I tell him that he is fine just the way he is?
Why can't I tell him that he and I complement each other?
Why can't I tell him that I am willing to spend the rest of my life with him, through and through?

Why can't I tell him I want to be the person that he love most and I would love him back as much?
Why can't I tell him I don't want to settle down with anyone else except him?
Why can't I tell him I don't want to bear anyone else's children but only his?

Why can't I tell him all this when I know I really want him to know how I feel?
Why can't I?
Why can't I?
Why can't I?

Dang! I hate myself for not being able to tell him all this and it doesn't do me any good!

30 years and still going strong

It's my birthday today. I do hope I will be able to live life as fulfilling as it could be...

Dan buat sekian kalinya, dia lupa...

Cerita Korea

I got hooked with this Korean series, The Wedding. Because of that I insist on going home at 5.30pm sharp so I could arrive home at 6.30pm. As a result, I have to be in the office as early as 7.30am. That would lead to me waking up very very early in the morning to get ready. To be able to wake up early, I have to sleep early. And all this happened because I got hooked with this Korean series, The Wedding...

Ya ampunnnn, banyaknyer kije!

I had a splendid week of raya. My house was ambushed by my cousins on the first day. Penatnye toksah cakap la, sampai rasa nak muntah. My brother and sisters along with their spouse and children all beraya in Kuantan this year, so bertambah meriah la kan raya kali nih.

Tapi yang tak tahannye, after one week of cuti raya sakan, kerja kat ofis tu haaa.. setimbun! Kita ye la cuti, tapi user kat plant mana ade nak cuti. Last-last haku jugak yang kena balik lambat. Padan muka diri sendiri...

But then again, biar aje la... Bak kata my manager, kijer takkan pernah abish... btol tak?

I Remember...

I remember the first time we met. Yes, on the Internet. We chatted for hours, changing opinions; about things, about the environment, about people around us. Our virtual meeting was soon forgotten until one day you took the initiative to give me call (which I don't remember giving you my phone number). I was surprised but I was glad you called.

I remember you were always ready to hear me expressing my frustations during the FYP ordeal even though I know you haven't had a clue of what I was saying. Be it day or night, you seem to be always ready to pick up my calls.

I remember when we first decided to actually meet. You warned me that you look exactly like Shrek. I of course wittily replied that it would be perfect as I am Princess Fiona after dark. I was worried the whole week before we met. I was worried I made a mistake into agreeing to meet you. I was worried you might not turn up at all. I was worried I may not turn up. I was worried worrying. I was also anxious. I was anxious to meet you; to be able to know you in person.

I remember on that day, I waited for you at the wrong entrance. When you finally found me, I thought to myself, "Hey, he's okay, not bad at all!" You were no Shrek. Heck, you don't even have the green skin!

I remember we drove to the Twin Towers in my humble lil car. It was already Zohor and you insisted we pray first before going for lunch. Hmm... one extra mile for you. But I also thought you were just trying to impress me by being a Tok Lebai. Of course I thought wrong.

I remember our first of many lunches together. I even remembered what we ate that day. I remember how surprised you were when you found out we have the same name when you wrote our name in the gallery guest book.

I remember our meetings grew more frequent after that. There were always reasons to meet. I remember the visit to the museum and yes, I remember the night of Starlight Movies.

I remember the first time you met my parents. You were awed by Mommy's charm and Babah's charisma. Well, hey, guess what? They have the same feelings towards you as well!

All that happened two years ago and I remembered...

Wish List

This list will definitely grow...

1. Kawin sebelum apa2 terjadi to mommy and babah (but then, nak kawin ngan sape ek?)
2. Get a new car (hajatnye nak Jazz, tapi kalau dapat Satria pun dah kira bersyukur)
3. Lose some weight
4. Visit kak liza n abg mikail
5. Bandung!
6. Redecorate my room
7. Get a better paying job
8. Write more often
9. Brush up on my German (which is soooo basic and I need to do it ASAP before I forget everything!)

Guess who's being called for an interview?

ME! Obvoiusly... hehe. I got back from KL yesterday and I saw a letter addressed to me on my desk. On the envelope was written in big capital letters "URUSAN KERAJAAN" and "PANGGILAN TEMUDUGA". I was like, "interview ape lak neh?". Rupa-rupanya it was a post that I applied a couple years ago. Punya la lama sampai dah tak ingat dah.

I am both right now happy as well as nervous. Happy because I am finally being called after two years of waiting. Nervous because it has been like years since I left college and I can't really remember what I learnt anymore (tu la penangan belajo lain, tapi kerja pi buat yang lain, padan muka aku). On top of that, I am being called for an interview for a post at The National Space Agency. Lagi la takut kan. More reading for me I guess! But what to read?

Friends, pray for me I get through the interview okay. I know if I get this job, I will not let go the opportunity to be a part of this agency. It's kinda kool, is it not?

Khas Untuk Adeq

Adik, this one's for you. Enjoy it.

In Loving Memory: NKOTB : 1990 - 1993.

Hehehe, remember the good ol' days? Those were the days of bad hairstyles and flotsam-jetsom pants (re: colorful/polka-dotted trousers). I remember I went goo-goo ga-ga over these boys for years. Teenagers la katakan! Hmm... those were the days...

Woo hooo! Happiness!

Alas... I have a reason to quit. What's the reason? Haaaa... RAhsieeerrr! And I am feeling very, very light right now. Rasa macam nak terbang. No more dealing with the WITCH! The only thing I can say now is WOOOHOOO.... I'M FREE!!!