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Dah nak masuk 2 minggu dah rasa macam ni. Rasa macam penat sangat. Sangat - sangat tak bermaya. Nampak sangat umur makin meningkat.

Tadi, thanks to Facebook, I "jumpa" balik my TESL friends. Most of them are married and some of them dah ada anak... Memang patut pun.

Last Saturday, I pergi wedding my ex-colleague. The truth: I memang tak nak pergi, bukan sebab tak happy diorang nak kahwin, but I takut I tak boleh nak control my emotions. Lately, I senang nak mengalir airmata bila cakap pasal weddings nih.

When will mine be? I don't know, I really don't. I wish I could have a definite answer. A definite answer could help me move on with my life. Bukan macam sekarang. Rasa macam stuck. I can't be here nor there. Ntah la, tengok je la macam mana nanti...

Ingatkan dia?

It's a long break

Hmm... Yeah, I know, you don't have to rub it in. It has been what, 3 months since my last post. I must say, there's so much things happening around me, personally and professionally. Penat la wei...

No time ka? Not really. Just plain tired (More of lazy sebenarnya). Tapi ada satu cerita ni yang I akan tulis. Something that I have kept to myself for a long, long time. This was the month, 7 years ago.

So in the mean time, sabo yer, I janji akan publish jugak nanti, before the month ends....

Soul Cleansing Odessey

I was there and I want to be there again.
I do hope I will be invited again next year.
InsyaAllah....

Kenapa ek?

Friends used to ask me how come there are no pictures of anyone in my purse or diaries or even in my bedroom. And my answer would always be "Player mana boleh ada benda - benda macam tu, nanti kantol", hehe. Player ke aku neh? Huahaha.

But now, not only I have his picture in my purse, his face is also the wallpaper in my phone. Kenapa ek? Hehe... Buang tebiat kot...

My Big Sister is Coming Home

Yep, she'll be home just in time for the Pilihanraya. Plans are made, rooms are cleaned, so, kita tunggu dia balik je la kan... Seronok la pulak!

Kes Tersilap Cakap

Ya Ampuuuunnnn! Semalam saya dah tercakap sesuatu yang tak sepatutnya saya cakap pada seseorang itu. I hope dia tak perasan, but if dia perasan, MALUNYERRRR...

Arrrgh geram betullah!

Terkenang Zaman Dulu...

We were having tea at the garden one evening when we heard our neighbour were screaming at her son not play outside the house, "it's not safe", she said. I suddenly remembered the good old days when I was about the boy's age.

Those days, right after Asar I would be out playing in the streets. Riding my bike, paddling so fast imagining I'm in a race. Once, I accidently banged a nyonya, she was hurt and I panicked. I just cycled home and hid under the bed. Hey, I was only 5 or 6 then. I was scared okay. Don't blame me for not helping the poor old nyonya. But that incident definitely did not stop me from cycling again the next day.

Then there were rounders. It is something like baseball but we used a flat papan (wood) as the bat. The ball would be a tennis ball. We would be running around with only our underwears, boys and girls.

I was a bit lasak when I was young. I always thought I was a boy. I climbed trees instead of playing barbie. I scraped my knees lots of time. I had ikan laga, lots of them. I just love being outside the house. There was nothing to be scared of. It was safe then...

Harapan Saya untuk Tahun 2008

Harapan saya untuk tahun 2008 ialah...

1. Perusahaan saya akan lebih maju sehingga boleh bersaing di peringkat antarabangsa.
2. Berkongsi hidup bersama orang yang paling saya sayangi dan rindui dalam setengah tahun pertama.
3. Mengerjakan Umrah bersama kakak dan abang serta isterinya dalam suku tahun pertama.
4. Melangsaikan hutang belajar pada suku tahun kedua.
5. Memiliki sebuah rumah pada suku tahun terakhir.

If Only...

If only I had the courage like I have now back then, I know that certain someone would be happier now. I would be happier myself. I'm not saying I am not happy now, but I would be happier if that certain someone would be happy too.

Family Time 2007 - Bukit Merah Laketown & Penang

I don't usually do this, but let the picture do the talking this time. Will write again as soon as I get my notebook fixed.

Love is not to Forget but to Forgive

I checked my mails yesterday and I saw this in one of the mails sent to me. Thought I'd paste it in here and share with others...

LOVE is not to FORGET but to FORGIVE,
Not to SEE but to UNDERSTAND,
Not to HEAR but to LISTEN,
Not to LET GO but to HOLD ON...

Tercipta Untukku - Ungu

menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

banyak kata
yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
kepada dirimu

reff:
aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tau
kuslalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu
sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tau
kuslalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu

Sumber: LirikLaguIndonesia.Net

More Celebrations over the Weekend

My cousin sister got married last Saturday. The reception was sweet and simple. Her Majlis Akad Nikah was held at the mosque in front of her Granny's house. I, as usual, shed tears every time I attend Majlis Akad Nikah. Tak tau la kenapa, every time I dengar orang lafaz nikah, mesti rasa macam nak nangis. Sensitive ke hape, tak tau la. Most of my uncles and aunts and cousins came back for the wedding. I guess this is more like a family gathering for us.

Yesterday I celebrated my birthday with my family. Takde la ape sangat pun, dah tua, tak la meriah sangat celebration nya. My cousin treated the whole family for breakfast, my mom lunch, and my brother dinner. Kira - kiranya tahun nih punya birthday, I asyik makaaaaaannn je la the whole day. Hehe. Oh, not to forget, my sister in law gave me a long purse. I just luuurrve it.

Nasa, as expected, did not remember.... hmm... MEN!

Ceritera Rindu

Esok genap sebulan Nasa di perantauan. I have to admit, I do miss him and I miss him a lot. Selama kami berchenta ni, tak pernah lagi kami berkeadaan macam ni. Dulu, masa dia di KL, I could still hear his voice at least once a day but not this time. The last time we spoke to each other was the day before he flew for London. We had a long chat via the phone. Luckily I subscribed to 1+3 punya scheme, kalau tak, for sure bill aku melambung bulan tu.

Teruk juga rupanya bila rindu ni ye. Everything rasa macam not right, not complete. I miss everything about him; his voice, his jokes, his laugh, his temper, his touch, his hugs, his smell...

So Hunny, if you happen to read this, I want you to know I been thinking about you and I miss you so much.

I am so short of ideas...

that I think I should just go to bed now.
I shall try to write again tomorrow.

Gute Nacht.

Birthday Celebration

It's Mommy's birthday today. She is 64. She had lots of gifts this year, mostly from her grandchildren. We, her children on the other hand treated her for a dinner. Kalau nak ikutkan, apa lah sangat harga makan malam kalau nak dibandingkan dengan segala pengorbanan Mommy untuk kami semua.

Weekend Updates

I was supposed to go out with Nasa lepas kerja last Saturday. But then, we did not. Abah was admitted to the hospital and he had to take care of Abah. It was quite sad because Nasa is leaving for London this evening and now Abah is ill. He is worried to the max.

But I did meet him on Sunday though. Brought along the cheese cake and the baked macaroni I baked for him. I’m glad he loved it. That night, salam – salam dgn dia, mintak maaf segala. Dia pesan to take care of myself since he will not be around for the next 3 months. Mak wanted to meet me. They waited but I came late. I felt bad I made them wait. Since Abah was not quite well yet, Nasa promised Mak he’ll take me to Sg. Lembing as soon as he’s back in Malaysia.

Also on that Saturday, my cousin arrived from KL with her friends. She called me to pick them up at Vistana so that I could show them around Kuantan. My cousin tu hopeless skit when it comes to directions. Just imagine, nak sampai ke rumah I, tak tau berapa kali dia tawaf Bandar Kuantan tu baru jumpa my house. Sabo je la.

Anyway, she's here because of the World Silat Championship that is now being held at SUKPA. I don't exactly know what she does but apparently she is doing some sort of a research on event management thingy. Since this cousin of mine nih dah tak balik Kuantan dalam 3-4 tahun dah, so I pun obliged la nak entertain she and her friends.

Yang tak larat tu 2 hari berturut - turut I balik pukul 1 pagi. Dang! I betul - betul dapat LESEN BESAR from my parents. Hehe. I nih kan, seperti yang sedia maklum adalah anak yang baik lagi mendengar kata. Mana la I biasa balik pepagi bute nih. Because of that, I am now having fever. Teruk kan? Nampak sangat tak gheti keluar malam. Hehe. Went to the clinic yesterday and doctor kasik MC. Went home and slept the whole afternoon. Bliss!

Iftar at the Grand C0n

Last Friday we had our Iftar at GC. Takdek la grand sangat pun. There were 30 of us, most of them supies and of course our MD and Director were also there. MD brought his wife along and sat satu table ngan I. Mula - mula tu rasa kekok since I have never spoke to him informally, but later I found out that he's quite friendly. His wife is friendly too. Walaupun depa tu tak berapa nak gheti nak cakap omputih, but they really tried to be friendly to everybody.

The food was good but I only ate a little sebab dah tak boleh nak masuk dah perut. Rugi kalau bawak I pegi buffet neh, bayar mahal tapi makan ciput. So kalau - kalau ada orang yang terfikir nak ajak I gi buffet tu, better think twice. Kalau ala carte takper. Hehe.

Lepas makan - makan, sure la ada photography session kan. Hmm, apa lagi, flash kelip sana sini la. Rasa macam glam je malam tu. Padahal hakikatnya takdek la glam sangat.

Bila dah siap semua, baru la sibuk nak cari tempat solat. Punya la jauh, naik lift, jalan sampai keluar kat parking area, pastu naik lift lagi, baru jumpa surau. Walaupun surau tu susah skit nak cari, tapi kira okayla sebabnya prihatin jugak la hotel tu nak sediakan ruang solat. It is an apartment they convert it into ruang solat.

Lepas solat tu, terus get ready nak balik. Lepak jap depan pintu hotel tu, amik gambar lagi and finally I was ready to go home. All in all, the event was fun.

Siapa Sangka???

Who would have thought that my mobile number yang I dah gune since 2000 sebenarnya berharga ribuan ringgit malaysia. How I know? Here's how...

I went to my service provider this afternoon to register a new mobile number for my personal use. Little that I know that we can actually migrate from prepaid to postpaid but still maintaining the prepaid mobile number. The CSO told me I could, so I decided to go for it. I told her my number and her response was, "Puan, kalau puan nak tau, number puan nih kalau orang nak beli, the cost would be RM1000.00". "Seriyes? Oh man, mahalnye number aku!", terkejut beruk I kejap.

Mana taknye, I ingat lagi masa I beli number tu, rege dia RM138.00. Itu harga masa memula prepaid SIM keluar. Rasa macam mahal sangat dah masa tu. Tak sangka la pulak sekarang buleh jadi rege cam gitu. But then, rasa bangga gak. Ehehehe. Tak sanggup I nak jual number tu. Kalau orang offer lebey dari tu pun I taknak jual. Sayang beb. Dah jadi macam darah daging dah, sebati ngan hidup. Kalau guna number lain, musti rasa strange je.